SHATTERING OF BROKEN HEART

i don't know why i come back to you when u leave me again n again
i dont know with those few smiles n many night of tears what i gain
but the love which we shared made me feel more miserable every time
making all those pleadings in front of you i feel like a mime
many eyes silently questioned me why you left me all alone
was all those things fake with all the love you had shown
i guess you enjoy my helplessness and my eyes full of tears
but after every night heavy heartedly fake smile i wear
what makes it worst is i still want to be with you even if you treat me like hell
and i want to spend each n every moment with u as u have casted a spell
sometimes i wonder if u still remember me??????
and how u react if u recognize the moment in which together we wanted to be
if u remembered how i smiled and my name still bring that sweet smile on your face
or it would upset you more n you dont want to spent one more moment as it would be waste
with every passing hour it seems that this day will be difficult to pass
i'm ready to beg or anything you want me to do if i get u at last
when i asked if you would leave me ever or you were excellent in this art
sometimes i cried, sometimes i smiled, trying to hide all my pain
i tried to tell you how much i need you but ur indifference is driving me insane